Happy Neurasthenic

First, i'd like to apologize to my numerous fan readers - he he i'ma joking, but sure you guessed. But i was quite desapointed because the -incredible- number of visitors on this page. Moreover, i had better thing to do, like watching my toes' nails growing and listenning to the sound of my hair while getting longer. Then, came the holidays, so i had even more things to (imagine to) do. But most of all : i started a book. that's not too crappy for the moment, so that's ok... but i won't start the translation, it would surely lose its main signification. Writing in french or in english is not so similar, and i have not enough years of english-speaking to try pass from one to the other.

All people around here - which means maybe one poor guy who lost himself here for aparently no understanding reason - have a thing to know : i passed the pre-selection of the First Cambridge Certificate with an average 85%. So i'll be taking the real First in May, and i swear i'll pass it !

Then my total domination over the world will be hold back by Nothing but my unconditional love for fried chiken ! Because language is Power, and Power is rather ok. XD.

This year is my last year in high school. Could be a ggod news, if only i had another idea for my future than creating a hippy sect. Well, i thought about Medecins Sans frontieres, if i start medecine studies... But my heart's not in it. Oh, in fact my heart is never in something. Thereby, this has 2 consequences : one, i'm never really hurt or alone, and two, i'm never really touched or loved. When you pull the 2 together, that's a good deal. No pains, no feelings, only Music to fill your heart, no deception... But a heart is still a heart. So sometimes i don't watch out, and with time, i begin to tie to some people.

And just when you started to feel confident and at ease with that personn, she starts to say awful stupid things like "let poor people enter prestigious school and you'll find dead bodies over the pavement". Yeah, sounds like a joke, but it's not. Seems like i have a special thing in me attracting only retarded sensitive-less people. Well i hope so, otherwise it means that the world is really, really sad.

Let's not think the world is sad. Let's just dry our tears and use it to paint a big butterfly so shiny that it will blind all the stupids and leave them chatless. That's how it should be. I mean, butterflies. Shiny XD.

- Internet, i am bored.
- What ? !!! You !!! You are bored !!! But you never get bored usually !
- Yeah, that wasn't the good word... mmmmmh... i don't know what to do.
- that's not new !
- asshole.
- ...
- I've been onto "chat land". there I really got bored.
- What the f*ck were you doing there ?
- I don't know. I think I hoped to find someone i could talk with there. you see what i mean ?
- ... yeah i see. Smoke, bloody hippie !
- i don't smoke.
- then get drunk !
- no i don't feel like getting drunk. 'hot. i've taken a look on some websites, just like that.
- and so ?
- well... dunno. in fact you know i don't really want to go on with internet tonight, not to offense you.
- oh, don't worry, i didn't take it for me.
- you're my best friend.
- hm.
- what ?
- nothing. i find it strange.
- you love me, he ?
- yeah. you spent plenty of time with me. And moreover i'm kinda obliged to love you !
- yeah, This is the marvellous thing in it.
- uh ?
- if i were a program, would you install me ?
- honnestly, no.
- thanks for not lying to me. i apreciate.
- Do you want to listen to some music ?
- yeah i wouldn't be against some SWV, "use your heart" for exemple.
- ok.
- do you think that once i will take someone in my arms ?
- 'you mean "find someone who would Lovingly Love you and that you could hold tied" or just "finally overcome your locking and link yourself with some people" ?
- i do not know. you know in fact it gets me a little bit nervous, that "love" verb. It's a whatever-verb, doesn't have a sense anymore, even if you try your best to give it some. i love french fries, i love my friends, i love this boy, i love... too hazy, and not enough at the same time. You see that's why things don't work... ideas, language, humans, intelligence, concepts. either too small or too big to fit in the words, and nevertheless words, ya see, well for humans... he's disabled, that human, he is not feeling anything. By the way that makes me think : what would good words be useful for, it that guy is not able to feel them ?
- Go to sleep, it's starting be less hotty.
- but...
- c'mon, i won't die of it ! shut me down !
- well. see you tomorrow then. thanks !
- and give the walkman a kiss for me !
- you're really too cool, mate ! good night !

badly traducted from a text i wrote last night. if any mistake in the vocabulary or anything, please notifie me !

Hello to You, brand cyber-reader ! Don't be shy, make this blog your home of Insanity and Mental deviations ! Here we go, i'll bring you my lyrical trips and looooots of complicated problems - cause after all, when you look around on the web, it seems that blogs are made only for this, doesn't it ?

A little bit about me : i'm a Lady, better you don't forget it ! I'm a youngster, i like music, fatty food, shinig stuff, flowers, pink tight underwears - well, not for me, for men, sure - and the young boys that fit in. I have naturally sharped teeth and am very proud of it. I also have an extraordinary clothing style - people say it's crappy but they are just jalous that they are slaved by fashion, conventions, and lack of fantasy and not me ! I have no mental limite - some may call it dementia - which protect me from the Unfunky Real World's pressure... a little. I have plenty of qualities and gifts, and the greatest of all is without any doubt my modesty. XD I'm French, so i may make some mistakes in my use of english. Please don't mind, you should know how misfit is our education system ! To what you'll answer : but Education is misfit. And I'll say : Oh, that's f*ckin true mate !

You may find explicit language or offensive tail, or anything else, i don't know it's not already written. but that's not my first blog and i already know all the kind of bad surprise angry people can give to you, for every reason you can imagine. So please, don't forget there nothing here meant to get you mad, let's just chill. If you've got any problem about what i wrote, or if you wanna tell me about something you read here, or just if you wanna talk, you can contact me, i'll be glad to communicate with you - well, i'll be glad to communicate with somebody once in my life anyhow... You can also see the Disclaimers section.

Ok. let's bounce. And keep it in mind : When everybody's up, Neurasthenics are not. But when everybody's down, Neurasthenics are not ! uh...